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in⋅se⋅cure

-adjective
1. subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured: an insecure person.

everyones insecure sometimes right? thats just how its always gunna be.. no matter what.. i suppose.. unless you can prove me wrong. ugh.. insecurity.is.a.bitch.

i guess tonight's just one of those nights where apathy takes over.

the little things count. and sometimes its the little things that hurt so much. but screw the past cause it already happened and you can do shit to change it.

xD

HI RUSSELL!!
xD

when you come back =)

"Look out across the water
Faces of lonely daughters and mothers who care
But just can't be there
Swear that I will see you someday"

you've lost everything you had yet youre still strong. you left to a place where you have to risk everything just to save money to buy a house so that when you come back you'll have a place to stay forever. youre working hard for everything that you love. working so that ill have money to go to school. i look up to you and admire your strength. i cant wait til you come back to visit
ill see you when you come back daddy =]

oh jerome haha

ashlycakez: sweet dreams of _______!
ashlycakez: hahahahahah
Jeromie: lol
Jeromie: nightmares of jon and me!
Jeromie: lol
ashlycakez: lol **** YOU
ashlycakez: hahaha i love you bitch
Jeromie: HAHA i love you more bitch

sneaky sneaky

hope you like what i got you >=]

>=]

"Though we don't have much
You've got me and I've got you
And with a little faith
Miracles come true

And I don't need a hundred gifts beneath the tree
Don't you know the best thing you could give to me
Nothin' else will do,
All I want is you this Christmas

I don't want the love any other guy
I want only thing in this whole wide world
Nothing else will do
All I want is you this Christmas" -nsync >=]

[now back to studying]

blahhhh

i need moneyyyyyy
i need a jobbbbb
im boreddddddddd
cause baby left me >=]
to go work out

asdfh

damn break is over. back to school tomorrow how gay -_-

goodnight.

something

.nothing but bruises left behind.

.shit happens.
[[its all for the better]]

out with the old

i want this december to be special this year. i wanna do something that will get rid of the old memories i have. not saying those memories were all bad.. but i want this christmas to be better than last year.. i dont wanna be stuck thinking about the past cause im sick of getting screwed over in the end.

but perhaps this end of the year will be better cause i have you. You make me happy and im thankful for having you in my life =]

oh btw happy thanksgiving =)

SAN JOSE!!!

san jose to visit LEEEEEEEEEEEEEE finally haha

ashlycakez: what kind of noodles do want?!
ashlycakez: omg so much to choose from!
SeRv3d: hahaha which one do u want!
ashlycakez: i think thats why i woke up at 6
ashlycakez: i got excited
SeRv3d: lol
SeRv3d: what a fatty!
ashlycakez: omggg
ashlycakez: mmmmmmm

they know me so well =D

SeRv3d: i texted lee and asked him if he could guess the first two things ashly wants to do
SeRv3d: and guess what he said
ashlycakez: eat? boba date?
ashlycakez: LOL
SeRv3d: LOL
SeRv3d: yep

"it started with a kiss"

come near a little closer

"Maybe you don't understand my heart
But I'll try my hardest to touch yours
Im the clumbsy one in your eyes
But I won't give up"

you

i.just.want.you

"There's something I gotta say to you
but I'm so afraid of what you'll do
ooh ooh ooh ooh
I'll just admit this to you now
That I'm stuck on you like glue some how"

i love you baby

i feel..

kinda sick. slightly irritated at nothing (which seems stupid haha but its just that time..). but im very happy at the same time. i have a stuffy nose and i cant get rid of it. im tired but i need to study which i probably wont do =D oh and im hungry thats nothing new tho

so anyways. today i learned how to ripstick =D thanks baby!!! hmm.. other than learning how to ripstick i didnt really do anything else thats interesting or new. well i actually did stats hw haha. so i dont get why my calculus2 class is so much easier than statistics wtf that makes no sense. ughh whatever i cant wait until this semester is over!

i also cant wait for thanksgiving to come and then christmas!! yayyyy k gnite =D

thoughts and.. stuff

07 November 2007

ive fallen for you so quick and pretty damn hard. youre all i think of and i cant help it. im wearing my heart on my sleeve, you stole it and now im trusting that you wont hurt me. it hasnt even been that long since we've been together but i care a lot about you and i can honestly say i dont ever wanna lose you. ive had my eye on you ever since the first time i saw you and now that were together im the happiest girl ever. you make me happy. you make me feel good about myself. i can be myself around you and you get along with my bestfriend =] i cant think of anything else that i want cause i got it all now.

<3

best friend loves me =)

tapex we are is says chris

its halloween!!!! bestfriend and i are going to carve a watermelon. yes.. a watermelon. =D we can hollow out the inside and eat it! yeahhhhh cause you cant do that with a pumpkin now can you! xD

one of those days

finally able to update this =]

a lot has happened ever since this was last updated.
i lost some things/people. but i gained new people also.
focused on school but also on the people that matter to me. my family, fat best friend, bestfriends, and of course my bf. they mean everything to me =]

so its funny how people say theyre there for you but it ends up they really arent. people shouldnt say certain things when in reality theyre just making themselves look like a hypocrite, dumbass.i hope you scrape. wakakka.

so anyways tuesday i get my hair cut finally =D same style as the last hair cut. me and my fat bestfriend =)

fridayyyyyyy =D

finally out of class. im so tired =[

so aside from yesterday being the best day ever.. today was also the best day everrrrr for me and nina heheeheh oh man

were not in highschool hahaha dont worry >=]

i think im semi deaf or something. introduced to me then nina and i still couldnt hear the name

best day =D

french fries... oh yeah?!

only with my fat bestfriend. Ters days rock, =]

hehehehehehehehhe >=]

i cant stop smiling =D and i bet nina cant either! =D heheheh

=]

man school starts monday

i need to update this

CRAZYbestfriend tersday!!

so today was... adventurous, you could say. extremely adventurous

[3 parts]

ok so today started out normal.. went to class (late as always) hehe then got outta class and picked up nina. we went to eat at the Cheese Steak Shop (hecks of good!!!) but then after we ate i went to start my car and it started rumbling kinda then it died on me! it was like i stalled the car but i didnt! then i tried to start and samething happened again and then i called AAA service to tow my car home. so triple A actually took the full 30 minutes to come -_- usually they take like 10-15 minutes. i would know too kuz shoot this aint the first or second time i had to call AAA in my life. it was more like the 10th time hahah. anyways so the tow truck came, told me to start the car, so i did and yeah the car started. so he didnt do anything he said since it started first sight he cant do anything and he leaves! so i was able to pull my car out the lot then it dies again -_- so nina ran and chased the tow truck and came back. towed the car home. ok first part done.

second part.
me and nina went to eat.. again. this time we ate mongolian bbq mmmmmmmmm it tasted so good for some reason! oh and before that we went on a little shopping spree at bath and body haha got lots of neat things. well then we went to target in vallejo then went to Blue Rock Springs (note: zodiac killed someone there) but its a public park. we wanted to see the peacocks there. so we were playing the playground i guess you could call it kuz all the peacocks were in the tree. we wanted to get a tail feather lol. we climbed up this rock on the playground its kinda like a miniature rock climbing thing. so nina climbs up and then i climb up; neither of us thinkin about how were gunna get down. then im like nina... how are we gunna get down. and shes like "oh scaps i dunno!" so then we panic and were stuck up there! we were stuck for like 10-15 minutes then we started yelling and crap and security just drove on by like 3 times! punk!!!!! but then we saw a peacock walkin around on the grass and im gettin mad kuz they finally come down when were stuck on the rock!! so finally i somehow managed to get down with nina guiding me, then nina got down as i guided her. then were sneaking up on the peacock and chasing it! i havent ran like that in days! especially in slippers!!! oh my.

third part
so we give up on the peacocks kuz were tired and sweaty and cant breathe. then were like well lets go home now before it gets dark. and what happens.. the stupid security locked us in the freakin park!!!! Had a lock on the gates and everything! what a jerk. theres still 2 cars in the parking lot and he still locks it! WTF! so.. we saw a lady with her daughter and told them that were locked in. the ladys mad and so are we of course. then she comes up with a plan. which was to drive up this sidewalk which was like a little hill, move one of the two poles that somewhat blocked us and we could just drive on the sidewalk to pass the gates. seemed kinda decent. so we did it. BUT.. but but but the lady gets over just fine. but wen WE tried the stupid metal thing stuck to the ground scraped the bottom of our car! so were stuck and as it scraped it made a loud noise. so the lasy rolls down her window and were thinking shes gunna help us or at least stay with us. but SHE LEAVES> THAT PANK BATCH SON OF A BATCH FACKING SHAT JERK LADY!!!! ok anway, we start to panic kuz its getting dark and all thats runing through our minds was ZODIAC KILLER omg. were freaking out. people driving by are just staring. some drove up to the gate then just drove away, jerks. then nina calls her auntie. someone drives by and stops. i guess they called the cops or something kuz then the cops came. me and nina were like oh no... "ARE WE IN TROUBLE????" cop was like noo but you guys look stuck. lol yeah we are can you help us. so yeah he actually has probably a universal key and he opens the gate for us. so were saved!!

so we got to ninas and were explaining the story to ninas mom and her mom was like oh man i dunno if i should let you guys out now! and im like hey hey i got you hand soap from bath and body!! hahaha it worked >=] lol jk... well.. not really >=]

06 June my bday!!

so last friday was my birthday and it was the best ever!! thank you everyone that greeted me it made me feel super special =D specially everyone from union city heheh i love you all tons and tons =]

so nina and lizzy took me out after class and nina got me a cute little stuffed animal of a seal (of course!) a bag of gummy bears a bracelet from c28 and a musical bday card of johnny depp and orlando bloom! it was so cute! saw kung foo panda! so cute then after i went to get my ears pierced again. this time on the cartilage part =] earlier that day vanessa bought me a sprinkle caramel apple is was good! so when i come home i find another bday card on my bed and its from my cousin bao hoang it was so cute. it was another singing card but this one had hamsters on it hahah it reminded me of my hamster boba lol

so after that we went home and i saw jeanine =D took a bday shot with her

my friends are the greatest. even my friends whom i havent seen in literally a year or more, they still remembered my bday which makes me feel special =] thanks everyone i love you all xD

sad.mad.frustrated

sigh... ='[


"I've gone to far to come back from here, but you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me" -paramore

missing them

so i was talking to bernie earlier. we caught up a little and she wanted to visit me this tuesday but stupid summer classes ruined it. i really miss my friends in union city and such. =\ i havent seen them in literally a year. when i used to live out in san jose i saw them practically every day now its like never =( i really miss all of them sucks that fairfield is so far away.

so my birthday is this friday and what sucks is that i have freakin class lol damn it. but what sucks even more is that neither of my parents will be here -_- dad is in iraq and my mom will be in oregon. oh myyy apple pie!

Ters... day!!!

the lake over at nina's place is super nice

Sooo today! i went to class learned a little something then went home and waited for nina to come over. so we went and drove around and then went to lizzy's!! yayyyy finally we saw lizzy!! especially nina, she hasnt seen lizzy in so long! so my english class started at 6 today but when i went there one of the girls told me it got cancelled. Yes!! So i called nina right away and went straight to her house and we went to jamba juice cause nina said they have really good raspberry sherbert. and its true!! they do have really really really good sherbert for only 50 cents. xD then we had to go to sears kuz i accidentally left something there xD hehehehe oh it was the best!

After sears we drove around and took the back roads back to nina's house and we just hung around the lake at her house it was nice and a good stress reliever; which was what i definitely needed. I dunno why lately i been feeling sooo stressed out. But what makes me feel better is thinking about my daddy. He's coming home soon I cant wait! Well it's late and i got class tomorrow early in the morning so nighty night.

i see.. God???

nina and i went into C28 [i finally got my 'forgiven' bracelet] and we were looking at rings and each ring had a word engraved in it. so nina was looking for one that said purity and i was trying to help her find it. so here i am talking to myself reading the words on each ring out loud:
"i see Strength
i see Faith
i see Love
i see God" ...?!
then nina just stopped and froze so i stopped and i looked at her and we both started cracking up she was like you saw God ashly?? im like OOHHHH hahahahaha it was great. you shoulda been there!! kuz were just that cool =]

today nina and i went to get our hairs cut after my class ended. we went to mia&maxx it was ok coulda been better but its ok. anyways nina and i have decided to stick with going to regis or having my auntie cut it for me xD ahaha so this is kinda random but i was thinking about the stereotypes about viet people cutting hair and doing nails.. its so true -_- lol cept not for me hehe kuz im gunna be a doctor and so is nina!

on to a different subject. im so sick of school =( summer classes started yesterday for me
3 week intersession classes 27may-13june social science at 9am-12:30pm then english at 6pm-930pm SUCKS. then starting 16june music class starts 8-1030am oh MY.. oh well i guess whatever it takes to get outta solano asap will do for me. i guess i shouldnt be complaining? its for the better..

well i guess its sleep time now! nighty night!

all done!

im DONE! with finals that is hehehe

so bestfriend TERS... day is today =D so i shall update this later >=]

distressed

just a little unhappy

finals this week. haven't even been studying =\

its a lovehate thing.

boredom takes over

im so bored im going crazy! theres absolutely nothing to do at all >=[

[Best friend Ters... day]
so todayyyy me and my fat bestfriend hung out. like we do every thursday. xD went to target like always and bought cool stuff like... chapstick... stuff... and more stuff that i cant remember =) we ate some chili and fries at wendys and nina kept laughing at me cause the melted cheese made it hard to eat! then we went back home and watched POTC3 it wasnt as good as parts 1 and 2 but yeah =) then i did ninas nails kuz we were bored and i wanted to practice heheh. but then bestfriend left me all by my lonesome at home and now here i am bored to death lol

well i guess its time for nighty nights cause i got class tomorrow early in the morning =(
nightys<3

Movie Night

i almost forgot to add on to my last blog.

finally me and nina i mean peanut watched "John Tucker Must Die" again! That is the best movie EVER well so is "Cinderella Story" geez why are chick flicks so entertaining? weird.. anyways

hey peanut if youre reading this:

"i'll let you in on a secret
my MOM says im SPECIAL
on the inside!"

that was sooo cute hahaha

I need to watch enchanted with nina!

ok now its time for night night!
<3ashlycakes

bestfriend TERS... day

ahh yesss i waited sooo long for TERS... day to come =D. its like i havent seen my bestfriend in like a week or something GEEZ!

So today, my fat bestfriend my homie and i hung out today xD it was great we did the random stuffs! hahah we always have something planned like a week before then come TERS... day (thursday) we forget about it and just go get some fries and go to target or something. well actually thats all we ever do but it never ever gets old! i guess thats why were bestfriends haha.. so today bestfriend and i realized something, when we sit on the floor we sit the same way.. lol i dunno random but weird and cool kuz were cool. hekk duh!

A few weeks ago we decided to buy those dollar "grow" your own garden thing at target. so yeah we bought one for each other and we took it home and planted it in the little pot it came with. mines finally sprouted.. yayy i cant wait to show it

i hate the spring =( whatevers floating around in the air is making me all broked. yeah, i said "broked." anyways, freakin spring is killing me! Allergies suck seriously =(

well nutrition class tomorrow at 9am. nutrition is pretty interesting tho =) goodnight everyone<3

"hey hey"

dear blogger thing,
xD jk today... wait no not today.. so yesterday me peanut and myhomie (sweet nicknames huh?) hahakakak well yeah we went to vacaville cause we had to show nina i mean my fat best friend aka Peanut the new place in vacaville cause its hekks of super nice!!! and of course as always we went to target for no reason =) ahhh i love my fat best friend! we are on a super mission to find the place that sells the best french fries! ohh man so far its fentons.. and then its athenian grill.. mmmm im hungry now.. greattt

so today!
i went to school.. had a test in anatomy.. oh man i hope i did ok =\ well besides that test, in Lab here comes my teacher walking out with a container in his hand. Guess whats in the container!? A Half of a Human Head!! Muahahah it was so cool.. so my lab was from 2-5pm and usually i leave a little early kuz yeh its best friend TERS.. day (thursday) but today we couldnt hang out.. so i stayed in Lab for the whole 3 hours congrats to me =D AND when i got home i did my calculus homework! I feel so successful hahah and very VERY tired.

So later in the day i got bored, so i decided to play with my doggies, just the girls tho. Showtime was in his cage. they are just so cute!!

Heres bebe with a huge smile

and bebe and oj playing tug o war!
hehe oj is trying to hide!!
and here she is with a big smile =D

O_O

wow... i havent updated this in soo long i almost forgot my pw.

soo... monteray on saturday!!! YAYYY i cant wait.. this week is going by SO slow cause im so excited =]

i need money. why wont anyone hire me! wth..

ocean<3

the most bestest place ever >=]

pathetic you are

WOW could a person be anymore lame?
pretty pathetic if you ask me.
Riene knows what i'm talkin bout.

you gave me a good laugh for today tho HAHA lame!

sunny days

emeryville. i love it there. this is the view is along I-80. i hella wanted to see it so angie decided to show me and kitty how to get there. too bad i hella forgot lol. we went to ikea and ate =) hotdogs heheh. then we went to public market to get giant cookies. crispy on the outside and chewy on the inside it was great. i got the white chocolate chip ones. =] we sat at a table and for some reason we started to play scrabble (of some sort) with the words on the trash can. yeh random much?
just thot it was pretty so i gotta picture of it =) and then i saw some other lady do the samething hehe so yeh it was that pretty. in person it was better. i used my camera phone kuz i didnt have my camera on me =] oh well still nice.

i say BAN it

.when will it really end.

ifaw.org

hairs chop >=]

finally stopped pushin back that haircut i was supposed to get like a year ago xD

other than that.. nuthin new -_- stupid rain ruined my plans of fun heheh

anyways. my fat bestfriend. gotta love her. shes one of my bestfriends. my everything. my hero. my sister. my soul. she'll tell you the truth whether you wanna hear it or not. everyone needs a person like her in his/her life. =]

and on the other hand we can make lots of money by her singing and me playing the instruments hahahah<3